..some notes from the scrapbook..

Not so long ago I was sitting on the window sill, looking out the windows of the department I currently study at. Nothing worth mentioning, you might say, and that would so goddamn true ..but the first thing you perceive the moment you start staring are the high-rises, actually quite a lot of them. Full of people, I suppose.. or maybe they're just ghosts?


Math department is not the best place for looking out for life-time friends, maybe due to the fact people here tend to be quite unsocial and unfriendly, or they usually stick together in small groups. Anyway, the world suddenly changes, as if you'd have done a couple of swings with your magical wand, if you leave the building and head over to the dormitory. Out of the blue there emerges a new dimension, lavishing with friendship, fun and love flowing around in the air. Whenever you leave your room, be it 2AM, 2PM, or whatever, you can hear some people chattering, laughing, you always have this odd feeling, that there's someone you can talk to if you feel low. Or is it just my imagination speaking? That could be the case, as I've never had the chance to live in a dormitory - it so happened, that I was born in the city and didn't have to move to another town.

Furthermore, let's assume you live in a high-rise. Well, theoretically it's like there are people surrounding you as well, you're just separated from them by walls. If you stick your ears onto those, you could even hear someone snoring.

Why is it so different then? Do people get more and more untrusting with each passing year?


Oh well, I think it's just my loneliness [or envy?] speaking. Sometimes you feel so lonely, even though you're surrounded by other people.

Someone here needs a hug ?


I promised to post some details on what I've been working on lately, but I'm not really in the mood. Please, don't kill me ;-)